Starting The Countdown...........

So, here we are. I am 35 weeks pregnant, today. I am contracting like a mad woman and this baby GIRL is such a busy bee inside of me. She is pretty much active non-stop. I can't wait to see her little face, and smell her sweet baby smell.

This has probably been the hardest year of my life. There have been SO many downs, and not a lot of ups. I am really struggling to understand what and why. I know that this baby is going to be a wonderful blessing to me, I just wish I could see into the future a little bit. I need to know that everything is going to be okay. I need to know that I am woman enough to get through the trials that I have been given this past year.

I am afraid. I am very afraid. Maybe this little lady is coming to be my comfort. I just don't know.

I feel the need to tell my children how much they mean to me. I literally would not get out of bed every day if I didn't have them. Literally.

Gavin William: You are my right hand. I in NO way, shape, or form would have made it this far without you. I can always count on you to look out for me and to love me and to help me when I need it. You are becoming such a handsome man. I am sorry that I had to learn all my parenting lessons on you first. You deserve better. You are a blessing............I love you.

Addie Reece: You are such a joy. You are growing so much, you are becoming such a a little lady. You are so beautiful, I can't believe I made something so pretty! You are becoming more independent and sure. I know that you will be a great help when your little sister is born. I'm sorry that I am not always patient with you. You are a blessing............I love you.

Rainier Edgar: My little man. I love you so much, even though you don't think I do. You are so smart and strong and active. I miss your cuddles. I miss having you be my "baby". I hope that you will see the light when the new baby comes. I am sorry that my temper is short with you. You have NOT been replaced in my heart. You are a blessing................I love you.

Pierce Sterling: You are our sunshine. You have the ability to light up any place that you enter. You are warm and happy and full of life. I am so sorry that I haven't been able to enjoy every little minute of your 11 months here. I have been preoccupied. But I love you so much. I hope you will be okay when your sister gets here. I am so glad that Gavin loves you so very much. You are a blessing...............I love you.

Who knew?

My mother in law signed Rainier up to play soccer with his cousin this fall. Aunt A and Uncle T are the coaches. Seeing as I am THE slacker mom, Rainier has never played a team sport before. I wasn't at all sure how he'd handle it because to be honest..............he'd rather sit inside and play video games. Then we got to the soccer game. Apparently if there is a score involved, Captain Competitive comes out to play. He made 6 goals. It was incredibly fun (and funny) to watch.

Pierce made it through surgery! Hurray!

Pierce got to spend the day at Primary Children's yesterday getting his long awaited surgery. I was SO impressed with how efficient, kind and organized everyone was up there. Anyway, we got to put him in these adorable hospital clothes before we met with the doctor and the anesthesiologist. Pierce just looked so stinkin' cute I had to take some pictures. He was totally not bothered by the whole process of prepping for surgery. He even tolerated not eating for 4 hours really well. ( I was prepared for DISASTER to occur on this point as he does not like to wait for his food)

Waiting for him to come out of the O.R. was not as stressful as I imagined it would be either. Needless to say, I was pleasantly surprised with how calm and controlled this whole process went. When I got to go see him in the PACU, the nurse told me that he had been super feisty upon coming out of anesthesia. Now this I wish I could have seen! Pierce is not the feistiest of people, he's pretty laid back in general, unless you get between him and his next bite of food.

He only had to stay in recovery an hour and did really good waking up and drinking a bottle of juice for them. We took him home and he really has done well. He had to take Lortab yesterday and last night, but today..........(keeping my fingers crossed)...........he has only needed a little Ibuprofen.

I am SO glad this whole thing is over and I am SO glad that he only needs to have one surgery. I have been EXTREMELY blessed to have 4 very healthy children and I hope that we are blessed once again with another healthy one.

Love you so much Pierce! You are our sunshine!!!

This baby..........

Just when I was starting to wonder if I was ever going to feel this baby move.............now it is NONSTOP! Seriously. The only baby of mine that has ever been this active in utero was Addie Reece. Does this mean its a baby girl? Ugh! Sometimes I want to just find out the gender, and then I remember how much of a thrill it is to not know. And believe me, I need some good surprises around here.

It is getting harder and harder to tote "little" Pierce around. I am afraid for how much harder this is going to get before it gets better. My body is very, very angry at me for being pregnant again. And thats okay........I am very, very angry at it for being so fertile!!!

Irish Twins

So.........the time has finally come to break the news I suppose..................... We are having another baby, in October. Pierce and this new little beansprout will be exactly ONE year apart. This is called Irish Twins ya know. I found out I was pregnant 2 days before I was scheduled to have my tubes done. So everyone go ahead and have a good chuckle at my expense. Heaven knows the people who already know have either laughed hysterically or cried or wanted to choke me. And yes............I know where babies come from...................

A little sunshine for ya

For all the mommies out there. Good thing those kidlets come in adorable packages right?

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY (late edition)

HAPPY 9th ANNIVERSARY to me and my dear hubster. (Even though I am 100% positive he won't read this)